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♥朦胧醒来回你信息。

♥半夜里接电话。

♥告诉你——到家了就发消息给他。

♥你半夜睡不着发消息给他,他会陪你聊天。

♥不论走到哪里，都一直拉着你的手。

♥善解人意。

♥温柔细心。

♥言而有信。

♥拥抱很久，很紧。

♥接吻很深，很认真。

♥记得你说过的所有事。

♥常常发消息告诉你。突然很想你。

♥常常给你留言。

♥不舒服时，他会很担心很着急。

♥常常帮助别人，不为什么。

♥答应你，永远不，然后永远不。

♥吵架时不会一走了之。

♥他错了会认错，你错了不会怪你。

♥吵架后，会无条件地哄你，放下面子。

♥从不忍心责备你，无条件包容你。

♥会一直保护你，害怕你受一点点委屈。

♥你说笑话他会笑，会觉得你很可爱。

♥比你高。

♥会一个人安静地思考，但决不冷漠。

♥许多方面都很厉害，让你崇拜。

♥会一直夸你，给你鼓励。

♥不骄傲自满，

♥不对你隐瞒什么，

♥百分百信任你，

♥与人争议时，听上去像是解释。

♥认识他每一天都可以回忆。

♥不会因为玩游戏而忽略你。

♥孝顺父母。

♥尽量少抽烟少喝酒。

♥有活动安排事先和你打招呼。

♥和朋友出去时，要想着你。

♥重大的事情和你商量。

♥♥和大人在一起像大人，和孩子在一起像孩子。

♥喜欢你，从未犹豫，不拿你和别的女孩子比较。

♥♥从未想过离开你的世界。

♥你买给他的东西他都会喜欢。

♥♥身上的味道很好闻。

♥对女孩子有风度，也有距离。

♥了解你的烦恼与困惑，不厌其烦地倾听。

♥♥很少让你哭，你哭的时候会很心疼，紧紧地抱住你，告诉你都是他的错。

♥可以随时找到他。

♥♥靠在他肩膀的时候很安心。

♥♥和他在一起有种温暖的感觉。

♥不重色轻友，也不重友轻色。

♥♥计划的未来里，你是重要的一部分。

5apr

was sick , bb came over to find me . then bought porridge for me . sweet . ♥ then meet up w the ritz ppl @ cine to watch how to train your dragon ! toothless ♥ ! ton out @ aloysious house .

6apr - 7apr

xt's chalet . cut hair . regret much . home on 7 apr .

8apr - 10apr

went back to sacss . m square was fucked up . then went w cat to dobhy to meet her friend and i meet bb . then we went to play pool . and after that eat @ indulge . yum . oreo chesecake is bb's fav ! ♥ then pei bb until like 1 plus outside then home to slp . bb tonned out . ._. then morning let bb in .slp all the way then went to play pool in the evening . then out till like 5.30am @ jp then went home . while at jp , bb bought food to cook at my house . ♥ haha . first time eating what he cook . yum . planned for a movie marathon but ended up slpin , cuz was really shag . then bb cook @ 1.30 ended at 3 then can eat LOL . then after that went jp w bb to buy studs . and he went home at 8 plus after that .

11apr

stoned at home . bb out w friends ! ♥

12apr

first day of school . boring & hot .

13 apr

2nd day of school . homework !

14apr

3rd day of school . suckiest day of my life since 00:00 14apr 2010 . i got mad due to my "best" friend . started going crazy finding quarrels , punching the damn wall . fuck , what's the matter w me . you didnt text me till i texted you . why ? am i that not in concern to you ? i wanted to tell you i was sick , but i didnt have the chance . you shut me up w goodnight . i got really crazy , crying to myself . wtf is happening to me ? then went to school feeling fucking shag ttm . got hyped up due to class's laughter . became the class's treasurer . almost become assistant event management when steff was the event management . LIKE WTF ? APPEALED LIKE SHIT LA . ._. then finally miss fun gave in . phew . such a close shave . i dont wanna work w him , no way . then after school ... had the best heartache of my life ... thanks boy .

i really wish to tell you i still love you , but you dont seem to bother anymore , your coldness is making me weak . i really dont know what to do anymore . im sorry for not telling you before i go there . i just wanted to see you that badly . but i guess it was a wrong choice . you said you need time ... alright , there you go . take your time alright ? im not going to prob anymore . i give up . you decide . 2 months 10 days . are you that heartless ? i had 6 days of coldness once after the 2nd month . i beared with it . cuz i dont want anything to happen in this relationship . but it seems pointless . when there's heart to heart talk , you wont tell me anything but write it in the book , than what's the use for this talk ? i dont know la , im being truthful here , really . i really wanna salvage this relationship for the very last time . cuz i believe we can do it . truthfulness is all i need , but you aint giving it to me . trust is all you need , i gave you 80 % , but it's the 20 % that comes together w the truthfulness . be truthful and i'll trust you . lie to me and it gets lower . i dont wanna know friends , i want to know who . not because im demanding , but it's cuz i know it's FRIENDS , if not strangers meh ? am i that invisible to you that you cant sense anything ? why aint there any initiative in you ? why must it always be when i ask then you say ? might as well we get into a qsn & ans relationship ? im tired physically now , but im waiting till you come online . truthfully speaking , do you still love me ? im not gonnaprob in your lifestyle anymore , everytime an aeroplane flys past just now when im out , im like , i want airshow day again . that's my happiest moment w you . W O H J ♥ how much my heart hurts when i see you so tired .

i wanted to tell you this long ago , can we be "nothing" ? cuz nothing lasts forever . but now i really want us to last , prove me please ?

fever & flu pls stay .

Happy Birthday Ivan ! (:

went out to vivo , ivan's birthday outing . meet sister @ chinese garden . then went down to vivo tog . was late . haha , sister's fault ! xD then we went to the top , sit for awhile . pk keep asking us stay . haha . cuz he want take picture . then sister hungry , so she kept saying she want to go eat go eat . so she and ivan went down . then pk had no choice but to tell me why he's holding us back . so i told sister . then we brought ivan back up . and yeah , his brothers came to surprise him . then we caught a movie ... Kidnapper . the scene was near my house can ! LOL . hahaha . scary scary . haha .. then home after that w sister and zm .

20mar

joshua kong's bithday celebration . meet clique @ 3.30 @ dobhy . meet joshua @ JP at 2 to get hi his present but end up got nth buy just walk ard . lols . then took 174 to dobhy . the journey was effing long xD hee . joshua started playing big 2 & mahjong on my itouch . lols . then reach liao we rush to cathay to meet the rest . buy tix liao go back plaza sing . ._. walk in my heels my tian . pain like what ._. then went to play time crisis w zw . he's freaking pro luhhs . ._. same as bb . ._. then after that played basketball w korkor , wanted to pk w joshua & jj . but they back out . HAHAH . then go back cathay watch Confucius . damn nice the show . damn touching , cried damn lot . after that we headed to heeren , want to eat TGI , but ex like idk what . ._. so we went waraku . not really nice the food . ._. after that went w them to play pool @ beauty world till 1 plus . then joshua sent me home via cab . thought i'll be locked out , but lucky never :D

21mar

Happy Birthday Joshua Kong !

skype at home the whole day w bb . (:

quarrelled w dad . dang , saliva contains aids , bullshit luhhs .

22mar

bb came over to find me . then we went to play pool @ beauty world then we sat at mac till 10 plus then go home separately cuz bb tired le . he take 52 , i take 174 .

23mar

got super duper angry , cuz the person i die die also dont want same class as him , got into the same course as me ! WTF . angry angry . ): bb fell sick ... make me worried , badly . ):

24mar

worked @ 5.30 pm . my dearie still sick ):

25mar

stoned at home , my bb still sick ): worried much .

26mar

worked @ 5.30pm . bb got well le . yayness . finally i can have a peaceful slp .

27mar

sentosa w ritz ppl . got stuck between ecp and sentosa . korkor they all got ecp outing but i going for ritz de le . so yeah . ._. sorry clique !

28mar

went to jiujiu house , then go marina mandarin . sat at vip table but i dont know who's the bride/groom . until i see them LOL . hilarous . ._. the food sucks , came home and laosai dk how many times . ):

29mar - 2apr

@ chalet . fun . (: they like the food i cook like , yay . then on april's fool , scared eve . LOL . told her cz crying upstairs . she tio shock lo . xD clash of the titan @ ehub on 1st . (: ton @ hougang on 2nd w bb . then home on 2apr morning , slp till 5 plus . ._.

3apr

stoned at home w webcam w bb .

4apr

Happy Second Month Winston Ong !

i love you , i really do .

today 's feeling was bad . haish i was suppose to be happy . but idk what's wrong w me ... i just cant smile ... all the time i only felt like tearing . why ? damn god , i hate it . ): whatever you said to me make me feel like crying . ): wo ai ni . dang , ignore me . i've gone nuts . ):

jiujiu& jiuma came over at night . (:

15feb

went over to fun gu's house . drank white wine on empty stomach , got damn giddy . ._. then cabbed to hougang . meet bb first , then chengzhang and xingqian . headed to xiangyun's house for mahjong . won 2.20 . but lost in poker . like roars . hahahah . then went kfc to eat w the guys .. after that bb sent me home . pei him at playgrd until 1 am . then go home . mama woke up . i told her bb outside house tonning . ): then mama say , tml wake up early go pei him lo . so i go slp at 2 plus .

16feb

woke up at 7 plus . couldnt slp well . then i leave house ard 9 plus to find bb . mama came along and saw bb . ahaha . xD bb got a shock uh . funny . then i bring bb go eat breakfast . bb say the food not nice xD hahah . then we head down to cck to collect our ring . bb told me the reason why couples wear ring on the 4th finger . haha . super funny lo . then went kenneth house to bainian . played blackjack , won 12 or 13 bucks . then played mahjong and lost alot la . ._. 2x . LOL . but nvm luhhs . then went dobhy w them . and off to kahleong's house . got many many angbao . but i shldnt have went there lo . cause me to cry only . was playing some game ... then cuz i 6 plus reach , so it's not good to go off so fast , then they say want stay till 8 only . then i say i go back myself , cuz i wanted to leave at 9 and off to ecp to sansanxin . then my auntie all found out , fucking hell came and scold me . causing me to cry and everything . i not in mood le still come kp me . keep saying until like i go pub all those de . please luhhs , im not that bad to the extent lo . zzz . cried for like 1 hour plus can . zzz ): then home and bb called me . bb rushed home just to call me . thanks wor , and sorry , make you pangseh your brothers . ): talked to bb and was abt to slp , then josh sms me abt wed's bainian thingy at my house . then talk to him abt my aunt thingy too . slp ard 12 15 .

17feb

woke up at 9 plus . clique came over @ 11 . they stayed till 1 plus . cooked maggi me for them all . hahah . jj said , whoever be my hunsband very xingfu ! HAHAHAHA . *blush xD then i send them to bus stop and back home , now on msn , chatting w bb . typing this blog ! and watching jiu xiang lai zhe ni . xD hahaha . damn cute ... the show . ;D i'll be working frm 18 - 23 and 25 to 26 the 27 28 have chalet ! (: busy chionging work lo !!! ;D heeeee . YAY .

clique ! i wont be able to go out w you guys for 2 weeks ! sorry !! love ya all . have fun wherever you guys are !! (: