Friday, May 14, 2010
new blog @ tumblr , ask me for link (:
Wednesday, May 5, 2010
8.17 pm - 9.51 pm
okays , have not blog for 1234567890 donkey years . heh . was super lazy and not in any mood . but now im back :D
21 apr
schooled
22 apr
schooled . pool @ beauty world after that w michelle tay , michelle mai , marcus , taufiq , asyraf , steffen and azmi . fun much , 174-ed home w taufiq after that . :D memories there ..
23 apr
meet sister , cz , mandy xq & pk @ dover , went sp to eat . never eat though . xD then off to clementi kbox (: super fun siol . then after that rush down to bugis to meet zm , zs , ivan , vianney . then pk , zm , ivan , vianney left . zs came w us to eat steamboat . eat finish le went to play pool at poolfusion . fuck ex siol . ._. regret much sia . then mrt-ed home w mandy . ♥
24 apr
meet mandy & her friend bryan i think , then off to work at 5.30 . funny much ! same team as ivan HAHA . one from max , one from bernard . 12 am that time , max brought me out to smoking area to talk to me ._. then OT w sister . i swear was fucking hilarious . sister and i totally went mad la . ._. after break went up to 11th floor w robert & bernard to find max in his luxury room . ._. one from robert . ._.
25 apr
stoned at home the whole day . (:
26 apr
schooled
27 apr
schooled , no s&w
♥
28 apr
schooled .
29 apr - 30 apr
orientation camp ♥ :| unhappy . daddy came to pick me after camp . said bye to friends that time , marcus suddenly said bye and hug me , tio shock uh . that's his way of saying bye i guess . LOL . ._.
1 may
worked from 7 am . at green house till 12 . shag sial ! ._. the down to grand gallery w danny ! :D miss him loads man ! saw chef john ! like whoa , long sia . he damn slow , still ask me where's xiao long , i said die liaooooooooooooooooooooo . :D then he say wah , like that is sure not tog liao , so i went ya , and he went , wth ? i said , ask him for the reason , idk why either . hahaha . fun uh . had a nice long talk w kisstina , how much she told me to move on cuz it wasnt worth for a bastard like you . she kept telling me her experience ... then how you're not worth . haha . i almost cried at a point of time but no , no more tears for you ... kisstina's really nice ! she's a very good cousellor , oops , sorry xq xD heh , she's the female one you're the male one k xD hahah . though i dont think you're reading this xD ended work at 7 , went to out w selvam , 3 bottles of breezer , 4 sticks . high sia . ._. fuck . then i seh liao . ._. but lucky still know what im doing , cab to kenneth house , fell aslp on the cab sia . shag , and headache . ._. stayed there till 1 plus then cab home w joshua .k :D
2 may
work up at 2 , went to far east plaza to meet da gu ma . went for alteration , my dress damn long sia . after that went ion Charles & Keith to get my shoe . whoots . high heels , :D then after that went for buffet @ Paramount w da gu ma , da gu zhang , er shen , magdalene jiejie cousie and sherlin jiejie cousie . then after that go daguma's house till dad & mum finish uncle ace wedding . DANG ! i regret not going sial ! PAN LING LING AND HER HUSBAND , MARK LEE AND HIS WIFE WERE THERE ! >:( MAMA'S FAULT , ask me go w da gu ma to eat . >:( but nvm la , had fun w my cousins . da gu ma gave me a pair of earrings from Spain , nice siallllllll ! star star de , cannot find in singapore de . very ex too .
♥
3 may
schooled till 5.30 :D joshua came clementi to pick me :D heeeee . then we went west mall to wait for mich mai & kenneth ! played pool ! (: till 10 plus then me and joshua cab home . :D
4 may
schooled till 10.15 then off to dover to listen to principal talk , marcus sat beside me and he's retarded much . super funny . after talk he ask me want to eat at paya lebar not , ._. far like ... toot . then me and michelle also say want play pool le . so end up rejected . ahah . so we took 963 from ntu there then got down at jiuma's house . wahh sia , i tio scolded by jiuma laaaaaaa ): sobs . she scold me about you, wtfuck . im not angry at her , but im angry at you . cuz you caused that scolding to happened . FUCK . >:| but i still love my jiuma alot , cuz she love me alot and i love her too . :D after that me and michelle went to play pool . :D
5 may
schooled till 12pm . then off to yishun for selection . got in ! :D muahahahaha . the only girl there is fucking cuteeeeeeeeeeeeee . butch lai de . XD hahahaha . her name's sam , short for samantha ( cher say derhs) hahads , i notice most of the samanthas i know are butches . HAHA . xD the cher helping me choose cue stick next week friday . whoots ! SOMEONE ASKED FOR MICHELLE'S NUMBERRRRRRRRR . WHOOTS . HER LOVE IS BEGINNING AT POOL ~ MUAHAHAHAH ! ._. stoning now , and i finally updated my blog . heeeeeeeeee . after 123456790 years . the lazy me is back to blog :D
Labels: i love pool (:
Tuesday, April 20, 2010
8.19pm - 9.23pm
18 apr
went out to orchard w mama , bought my shoes for 72 bucks . hmms , everbest . shiny much . then buy things and ... stocking . then we headed home , and stonage .
19 apr
schooled , many many homeworks uh . ended school early , went to kbox . then i commented on the guy that served us saying he looks cute w his funny bangs , then YIMIN went to get his number . LOL . super funny can . ._. but he never give until when he come in to tell us last song le . then he shy shy put the paper w his number on the table LMAO . hilarious much can !!! then go meet joshua l . korkor to pei his nainai eat birthday dinner , felt cheated to go there la . ._. then korkor send me home via cab . HAHAHA . then do homework until 1 plus . then slp at 1.3o am . shag ttm !!! ._. chiong my homework like shit la .
20 apr
WAKE UP DAMN SHAG CAN ! leave house like at 8.15 ? when school start at 9 ? was late for awhile . hahaha . today camwhoring at school much ! super fun :D borrowed daniel's specs , damn cute can ! haha . when i reach home , mama gave me the biggest shock of my life can . she was clearing my stuffs . then she say to me , i throw away all his things le . i was like ? wtf ? then i chiong to my bed there , really gone can ! then i panic like shit la )': almost cry . then mama was like , k la , under your bed ... then i went , walaooooo , this kind of joke not funny lo ! ): she say , you treasure so much for what ? he can hurt my daughter like that . then i just place them back at place w/o saying anything . then just now 7 plus , i slp on the floor , damn shiok can . ._. my headache pain until i lazy stand up le then i also listening to songs on my lappy via earpiece, so just grab a cushion , and SNOREZZZZ . ._. then mama wake me up at 8 . ._. didnt want to wake up . but yeah , now im here blogging .
joshua l .korkor , everytime my relationship ends , you'll always start smsing me . i know you're the one there for me always , but the prob is , dont treat me as im yours ... the way you're treating me is making me afraid of you . you were a player , i know . i know your past , i know you like to flirt around , sorry if this hurts you . but i dont want to be w you . nor be someone you care like a girlfr . i know you care alot . but i want you to treat me as a meimei and not more then that . please ? i dont want us to be more then siblings ... so please ? dont keep telling me you would wait for me to accept you . okay ma ?
hmms , my friend ask , why do pretty girl get dump by guys ?
my answer is ... cuz the guys MEI YOU PING WEI ! . ._.
Labels: imissyou .
Sunday, April 18, 2010
1.17am
my mama just woke up and had this conver w mee , funny . im blogging w my itouch cuz i offed my comp . xD
okay , the most cutest thing my mama ever said ...
mama ; why is he like that ? teenages ahhhh ... is it after his camp he become like that ??
me ; how i know , yeahhh ...
mama ; throw away everything he give you laaa . see alrdy also angry !!
me ; harrr ? nvm la , just leave it larrr ??
mama ; you see le not angry i see le angry can !! do this kind of thing to you , hurt you so bad ..
me ; hmmm ... ._.
mama ; is it he found someone else he likes ?? he ahhh , no responsibility . play w your heart then throw it aside ...
me ; ehhh , dont know ? maybe lo ... hah .. (i swear my heart hurt like shit when i felt my mama's love and care for me ...)
mama ; dont think so much k ... go and slp and forget him ...
me ; orhhohkay ... O.O
i finally started to eat my medicine ... but my purpose of eating it was to slp well ... not get well . cuz i feel like puking now ... so yeah , eat the medi to get myself to slp , funny thing for me is that i can fight against the effect of the medi ... so idk how the heck am i going to slp now ... dang , i wanna slp w/o puking .. or else that lil amount of food i ate just now would become nothing at all .. cuz it was only 1/8 th of the whole packet and mama was screaming at me for wasting food . xD
Saturday, April 17, 2010
7.15pm
mama came to me and ask ... is it after his camp then he break up w you ?
i started tearing again ... then i went , can you stop asking ? yes okay ?
then mama say , okayokay . i shall not ask , just let him go k .
how my heart hurts when even she ask me to let you go ...
Labels: should i ?
6.57pm
okay , mama knows about it liao , cuz she ask me if i was w him ytd , i went , no , we broke up . then mama was like , he initiated it ? i went yeah ... and i cried . ._. mama then told me not to take it to heart ... & says no wonder he never reply mama's smses . dont know what to do now . my mouth is bleeding ... ._. i want school to start like now ): miss school much . so do missing yimin & michelle ! my two girlfrs that have been standing by me since the first day of school . ♥ thanks babes :D
Labels: mama knows ..
3.11am
i just saw a picture that make me cry again ... you wore our ring thru out camp as promised ... i saw it from the group photo ... now i regret much of what i did ... i know you're still angry at me . i really wished time would turn back ... i dont want the us now .. you would still be the boy i liked since 18 dec . and officially loved on 4 feb . i may seem annoying now to you . but i dont care . cuz it hurts me to hide myself from you .. though it makes you happy much ...
Labels: your promise ..
2.57am
i just read mandy's blog , thanks girl . im sorry about today . i couldnt be the old me ... i tried . i told myself to smile , but my heart just stiffen up ... towards sadness . you post made me teared . love ya babe .
addition , im going back to work , indulge myself in work till im okay ... that's the only way i could stop thinking though every corner of ritz carlton has your presence ...
Labels: imy badly ...
Elliot Yamin ; Wait for you
I never felt nothing in the world like this before
Now I'm missing you
& I'm wishing that you would come back through my door
Why did you have to go? You could have let me know
So now I'm all alone,
Girl you could have stayed
but you wouldn't give me a chance
With you not around it's a little bit more than I can stand
And all my tears they keep running down my face
Why did you turn away?
[Bridge]
So why does your pride make you run and hide?
Are you that afraid of me?
But I know it's a lie what you keep inside
This is not how you want it to be
[Chorus]
So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don't know what else I can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life
Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just ain't true
I really need you in my life
No matter what I have to do I'll wait for you
[Verse 2]
It's been a long time since you called me
(How could you forget about me)
You got me feeling crazy (crazy)
How can you walk away,
Everything stays the same
I just can't do it baby
What will it take to make you come back
Girl I told you what it is & it just ain't like that
Why can't you look at me, you're still in love with me
Don't leave me crying.
[Bridge]
Baby why can't we just, just start over again
Get it back to the way it was
If you give me a chance I can love you right
But your telling me it won't be enough
[Chorus]
So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don't know what else I can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life
Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just ain't true
I really need you in my life
No matter what I have to do I'll wait for you
[Bridge]
So why does your pride make you run & hide
Are you that afriad of me?
But I know it's a lie what you're keeping inside
That is not how you want it to be
Baby I will wait for you
Baby I will wait for you
If it's the last thing I do
[Chorus]
Baby I will wait for you
Cause I don't know what else I can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life
Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just ain't true
I really need you in my life
No matter what I have to do I'll wait for you
I'll Be Waiting.
SClub7 ; Have you ever
Sometimes it's wrong to walk away, though you think it's over
Knowing there's so much more to say
Suddenly the moment's gone
And all your dreams are upside down
And you just wanna change the way the world goes round
Tell me, have you ever loved and lost somebody
Wished there was a chance to say I'm sorry
Can't you see, that's the way I feel about you and me, Baby
Have you ever felt your heart was breaking
Lookin down the road you should be taking
I should know, cos I loved and lost the day I let you go
Can't help but think that this is wrong, we should be together
Back in your arms where I belong
Now I've finally realised it was forever that I've found
I'd give it all to change the way the world goes round
Tell me, have you ever loved and lost somebody
Wished there was a chance to say I'm sorry
Can't you see, that's the way I feel about you and me, Baby
Have you ever felt your heart was breaking
Lookin down the road you should be taking
I should know, cos I loved and lost the day I let you go
I really wanna hear you say that you know just how it feels
To have it all and let it slip away, can't you see
Even though the moment's gone, I'm still holding on somehow
Wishing I could change the way the world goes round
Tell me, have you ever loved and lost somebody
Wished there was a chance to say I'm sorry (I'm sorry)
Can't you see, (ohhh) that's the way I feel about you and me, Baby
Have you ever felt your heart was breaking
Lookin down the road you should be taking
I should know, (I should know) cos I loved and lost the day I let
Yes I loved and lost the day I let
Yes I loved and lost the day I let you go
Landy Wen ; 眼泪知道
眼淚知道 | Yuan Lei Zhi Dao | Tears Know
雲在走 雨在飄
Yun zai zhou yu zai piao
Cloud is walking rain is flying
好多悲傷在風中笑
Hao duo bei shang zai feng zhong xiao
A lot of sadness smiles in the wind
心在燒 淚在掉
Xin zai shao lei zai diao
Heart is burning tears are dropping
你的背叛沒有人知道
Ni de bei pan mei you ren zhi dao
Your betrayal no one knows
說愛我好不好
Shuo ai wo hao bu hao
Can you tell me you love me
就當作是乞討
Jiu dang zuo shi qi tao
Let it be like begging
哪怕說出口只需要一秒
Na pa shuo chu kou zhi xu yao yi miao
Don't afraid that it only needs one seconds to talk out
你都不要
Ni dou bu yao
But you just don't want
我的痛像把刀 血在流看得到
Wo de tong xiang ba dao xue zai liu kan de dao
My pain is like knife the blood dripping down can be seen
你卻在 她懷抱 微笑
Ni que zai ta we huai bao wei xiao
You just stay in her side smiling
如果連自尊都已經不再需要
Ru guo lian zhi zun dou yi jing bu zai xu yao
If pride is not needed anymore
這個世界什麼愛你買不到
Zhe ge shi jie shi mo ai ni mai bu dao
What love in this world that you cannot buy
天真全部可以倒掉
Tian zhen quan bu ke yi dao diao
All those innocent can be thrown away
海誓山盟變成一種玩笑
Hai shi shan meng bian cheng yi zhong wan xiao
All those promises become a joke
如果連誓言都已經不再重要
Ru guo lian shi yan dou yi jing bu zai zhong yao
If the promises made are not important anymore
還有什麼事值得你去驕傲
Hai you shi mo shi zhi de ni qu jiao ao
What things that can make you proud
所有承諾隨風燃燒 給你的愛已經停止
Shuo you chen nuo shui feng ran shao gei ni de ai yi jing ting zhi
All the promises burn following the wind, the love given has been stopped
心跳 你可知道無路可逃眼淚知道
Xin tiao ni ke zhi dao wu lu ke tao yan lei zhi dao
Heartbeats you should know, no roads to hide where tears know
Labels: lyrics ...
time - 12.34am - 1.35am
okay , i woke up today feeling very weak . when i stood up , i fell back onto my bed . low blood , dang . my lips were super pale i swear . dried like those crumple dried chilli . so i sat on my bed and thought . why am i like this . but no answer came to my mind . then i looked at xiao lang ... stared at it hard and tears came rolling ... believe it or not , i started talking to it like it was real ... i cried and cried , saying things that happened , i told xiao lang how i felt and everything that happened . and my last sentence was , daddy dont want us anymore ... i repeated it over and over again ... i cried for 2 whole hours ... i swear i couldnt control my tears ... it just kept flowing ... then i started screaming like a mad person . i really didnt know how to control myself . finally i decided to text sister asking if she's free to meet me cuz i really didnt want to be alone . sister forgo her couple outing just to go out in groups so that i wont be left alone in my house . thanks sister .. thanks to mandy too for coming over when you're suppose to go out w marcus alone . the night before , i placed your bracelet and ring into the bottle of stars you gave me ... but when i took it out and look at it ... my mind went , take it out and wear it , dont bother if he's wearing it anot . as long as you still love him , wear it , so i got it onto my wrist , and the ring on my chain as a necklace since i cant put it on that finger anymore . i went to bathe and got a bus to JP reached at 2.30pm . meet mandy and marcus first @ zone x . was listening to song thruout ... couldnt seem to smile at all . then went kopitiam to sit while waiting for sister , cz and xq . when sister came , she gave me a hug from the back , at that time , my tears started to store in my eyes ... but i was like , no , stop it . dont cry ... so i didnt ... then cz bought drinks for me as well as for sister ... thanks .. though i didnt really wanna drink anything ... ended up cz made me drink up the whole cup . okay , that was the only thing i drank since the night before ... hmms , then we waited for xq to come ... xq kept asking me if i wanna eat , and why i dont wanna eat . i really dont have any appetite . sorry . made 3 hearts out of paper and tore all 3 into half .. we sat there till 3 plus ... went to play basketball . didnt want to play at first .. but ended up solo-ing . my hands were weak , 30 secs pass and my arms were dead . then played the bishibashi w mandy and xq/marcus . ahaha . funny ttm . mandy won overall . (: sister and cz left for vivo first to collect the tix . so the four of us went over after the game . stood in the mrt .. and images of you popped out ... i tried my best to hold back my tears ... but after the train went past dover ... it flowed . sorry mandy/xq/marcus . ignored you three totally .. then i stood back up ... and yay , reaching outram . ._. went giant and xq bought danish pastries . LOL . and chips . ._. as usual la . then we went to gv , on th way there , cz & sister going giant to but things . LOL . watch shutter island @ gvmax . cool ttm . but the show was scary . for once i had no one to hide under ... ): had to live w my jacket ... was cold la ... see sister and cz so loving . 2 seats sit until both at 1 seat nia . ._. envious luhhs . ._. otw out to the exit , cz ask me , what i wanna eat . then i ask him , you want the truth or the lie ? he said both . so i said , truth is i have no appetite , lie is im not hungry . then went to kopitiam to eat ... didnt want to eat anything cuz i really didnt have any appetite ... but sister say if im not eating she's gonna buy porridge for me ! gahhh , i dont want porridge . so i ended up buying fried hokkien mee . ate half again . cuz i didnt feel like eating anymore . after that went to the roof to walk walk . hah . walk w xq & mandy in the water . marcus wearing shoe so cant come down . hah . then we went playground to play awhile ... missed those times when it was w you ... mrt-ed back after that ... was kinda emo-ing myself w my music ... then when mandy got off ... you came to my mind again ... and i cried . yes i cried . i couldnt hold back ... sister was behind me ... i texted her ... saying that i missed you badly . sister then came and hug me ... i really really missed you alot . though the whole day went past , i thought i would be too tired to even think about you . but i was wrong ... very very wrong ... sister hugged me from dk where till JE . then she went off @ CG . i cried to myself after they left ... all the way home ... when i reached 10th floor ... i went to the staircase and looked at it ... tears falled harder and faster ... memories ... sat there for awhile ... thinking about everything that happened there . went back home and now im here blogging ... everywhere i go is just images of you ... it hurts much to think that you dont care anymore ... haish . i miss you .
Labels: i miss you .
Thursday, April 15, 2010
Martians are for man .
Venusians are for woman .
now i know why out of nowhere you would just keep quiet ... because you're inside your own cave .
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to feel better , Martians go to their caves
to solve problems alone .
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why do mens go into caves ...
1) he needs to think about a problem and find a practical solution to the problem
2) he doesnt have an answer to a qsn or a problem
3) he has become upset or stress . he doesny want to do or say anything he might regret .
4) he needs to find himself . impt for man who are in love . they are finding the loving and powerful self again .
which one is you ?
as for me , i'll talk in out . it's so true .
___________________________
to feel better , Venusians get together
and openly talk about their problems .
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to forget her own painful feelings
a woman may become emotionally involved
in the problems of others .
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that's me ... i swear im emotional . i cry when im sad , i dont wanna hide it . it hurts .
_____________________________
it's difficult for a man to listen to a woman
when she is unhappy or disappointed
because he feels like a failure .
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is it true ? is this why you dont listen to me that day ?
when im crying , all i want is you to hug me ... hold me close and just tell me that you care ... but what you did was walk away . i want you back ...
Labels: men are from mars, women are from venus ...
Wednesday, April 14, 2010
If I were blue, would you be there for me,
And whisper in my ears that's ok.
Would you stand by me, let me hold you tight,
And say you love me one more time.
If I feel good, would you slow dance with me,
And touch my lips with tender loving care,
Would you die for me, would you run with me,
And never look back..
Would you be there to love, to be with me?
Would you swear that your love is always true?
Would you say that you'll always be the one,
to take my breath away?
Would you be there to love, to be with me?
Would you swear that your love is always true?
Would you say that you'll always be the one,
to take my breath away?
Would you be there..
If I am away, would you still think of me,
And wished that you could hold me now.
Would you die for me, would you run with me,
All the way ...
Would you be there to love, to be with me?
Would you swear that your love is always true?
Would you say that you'll always be the one,
to take my breath away?
Would you be there to save my soul tonight,
Would you swear that your love is always true,
Would you say that you always be there,
To kiss my pain away,
Would you be there to love, to be with me?
Would you swear that your love is always true?
Would you say that you'll always be the one,
to take my breath away?
Would you be there to save my soul tonight,
Would you swear that your love is always true,
Would you say that you always be there,
To kiss my pain away,
Would you be there ..... for me ...
Labels: would you be there ?
他是...
♥朦胧醒来回你信息。
♥半夜里接电话。
♥告诉你——到家了就发消息给他。
♥你半夜睡不着发消息给他,他会陪你聊天。
♥不论走到哪里，都一直拉着你的手。
♥善解人意。
♥温柔细心。
♥言而有信。
♥拥抱很久，很紧。
♥接吻很深，很认真。
♥记得你说过的所有事。
♥常常发消息告诉你。突然很想你。
♥常常给你留言。
♥不舒服时，他会很担心很着急。
♥常常帮助别人，不为什么。
♥答应你，永远不，然后永远不。
♥吵架时不会一走了之。
♥他错了会认错，你错了不会怪你。
♥吵架后，会无条件地哄你，放下面子。
♥从不忍心责备你，无条件包容你。
♥会一直保护你，害怕你受一点点委屈。
♥你说笑话他会笑，会觉得你很可爱。
♥比你高。
♥会一个人安静地思考，但决不冷漠。
♥许多方面都很厉害，让你崇拜。
♥会一直夸你，给你鼓励。
♥不骄傲自满，
♥不对你隐瞒什么，
♥百分百信任你，
♥与人争议时，听上去像是解释。
♥认识他每一天都可以回忆。
♥不会因为玩游戏而忽略你。
♥孝顺父母。
♥尽量少抽烟少喝酒。
♥有活动安排事先和你打招呼。
♥和朋友出去时，要想着你。
♥重大的事情和你商量。
♥♥和大人在一起像大人，和孩子在一起像孩子。
♥喜欢你，从未犹豫，不拿你和别的女孩子比较。
♥♥从未想过离开你的世界。
♥你买给他的东西他都会喜欢。
♥♥身上的味道很好闻。
♥对女孩子有风度，也有距离。
♥了解你的烦恼与困惑，不厌其烦地倾听。
♥♥很少让你哭，你哭的时候会很心疼，紧紧地抱住你，告诉你都是他的错。
♥可以随时找到他。
♥♥靠在他肩膀的时候很安心。
♥♥和他在一起有种温暖的感觉。
♥不重色轻友，也不重友轻色。
♥♥计划的未来里，你是重要的一部分。
5apr
was sick , bb came over to find me . then bought porridge for me . sweet . ♥ then meet up w the ritz ppl @ cine to watch how to train your dragon ! toothless ♥ ! ton out @ aloysious house .
6apr - 7apr
xt's chalet . cut hair . regret much . home on 7 apr .
8apr - 10apr
went back to sacss . m square was fucked up . then went w cat to dobhy to meet her friend and i meet bb . then we went to play pool . and after that eat @ indulge . yum . oreo chesecake is bb's fav ! ♥ then pei bb until like 1 plus outside then home to slp . bb tonned out . ._. then morning let bb in .slp all the way then went to play pool in the evening . then out till like 5.30am @ jp then went home . while at jp , bb bought food to cook at my house . ♥ haha . first time eating what he cook . yum . planned for a movie marathon but ended up slpin , cuz was really shag . then bb cook @ 1.30 ended at 3 then can eat LOL . then after that went jp w bb to buy studs . and he went home at 8 plus after that .
11apr
stoned at home . bb out w friends ! ♥
12apr
first day of school . boring & hot .
13 apr
2nd day of school . homework !
14apr
3rd day of school . suckiest day of my life since 00:00 14apr 2010 . i got mad due to my "best" friend . started going crazy finding quarrels , punching the damn wall . fuck , what's the matter w me . you didnt text me till i texted you . why ? am i that not in concern to you ? i wanted to tell you i was sick , but i didnt have the chance . you shut me up w goodnight . i got really crazy , crying to myself . wtf is happening to me ? then went to school feeling fucking shag ttm . got hyped up due to class's laughter . became the class's treasurer . almost become assistant event management when steff was the event management . LIKE WTF ? APPEALED LIKE SHIT LA . ._. then finally miss fun gave in . phew . such a close shave . i dont wanna work w him , no way . then after school ... had the best heartache of my life ... thanks boy .
i really wish to tell you i still love you , but you dont seem to bother anymore , your coldness is making me weak . i really dont know what to do anymore . im sorry for not telling you before i go there . i just wanted to see you that badly . but i guess it was a wrong choice . you said you need time ... alright , there you go . take your time alright ? im not going to prob anymore . i give up . you decide . 2 months 10 days . are you that heartless ? i had 6 days of coldness once after the 2nd month . i beared with it . cuz i dont want anything to happen in this relationship . but it seems pointless . when there's heart to heart talk , you wont tell me anything but write it in the book , than what's the use for this talk ? i dont know la , im being truthful here , really . i really wanna salvage this relationship for the very last time . cuz i believe we can do it . truthfulness is all i need , but you aint giving it to me . trust is all you need , i gave you 80 % , but it's the 20 % that comes together w the truthfulness . be truthful and i'll trust you . lie to me and it gets lower . i dont wanna know friends , i want to know who . not because im demanding , but it's cuz i know it's FRIENDS , if not strangers meh ? am i that invisible to you that you cant sense anything ? why aint there any initiative in you ? why must it always be when i ask then you say ? might as well we get into a qsn & ans relationship ? im tired physically now , but im waiting till you come online . truthfully speaking , do you still love me ? im not gonnaprob in your lifestyle anymore , everytime an aeroplane flys past just now when im out , im like , i want airshow day again . that's my happiest moment w you . W O H J ♥ how much my heart hurts when i see you so tired .
i wanted to tell you this long ago , can we be "nothing" ? cuz nothing lasts forever . but now i really want us to last , prove me please ?
fever & flu pls stay .
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